the ridicule of the world, even when it is only reflected in his own thoughts. But where the mistake is made, is that you don't try as hard for this, to achieve the femininity that you desire, to become a fully rounded person, all of you. You tend to put more material things ahead, and to destroy your own hopes and aspirations. You marry a girl that won't understand, because you don't have the guts to tell her in the first place that skirts are just as important a part of your life, as they are to her; and then you suffer, and your mind wrings itself out over and over again. If you only chose, if you only realized...

When you put on a skirt for the first time you made the choice and this was to be one of the biggest parts of your life. Think for a minute just how much it has meant and just how many decisions you have based on the fact that emotionally you need this balance for happy living. You must be quite intelligent for this aspect of your personality to have emerged in the first place, and the steps that you would take to make yourself a more complete person, happy, stable, and secure are the things that must be considered.

First of all you need a companion in life. People are meant to walk two by two, and a good woman is exactly what you need, to round you out. Many of the people who have stated that it is best not to have married, are those who have had bad experienced. I did too. But I have found that it is just a matter of looking to find the right girl. And this means asking, telling and explaining and rejecting some candidates, that might fit every other part of your personal qualifications. Remember, this isn't just a little part of your life, one that can be forgotten, it is even harder to give up if you are married, because the girl that you marry, will constantly surround herself with all the things that you have dream- ed about. It can mean, that during your search you will be laughed at, or pitied, or suggested to get help, but you must use quite a bit of that male courage, and not commit yourself unless you are sure. You aren't wishy-washy enough to buy a car that you don't like, why do it in select- ing a wife. The rewards of the search are too great. A lifetime of co- operation and personal freedom of expression are at stake. You can win the emotional relief you have wanted, plus a happy companion for life, or a lifetime of misery, hiding in motel rooms and sneaking, ill fitting mail order clothes on the side. Its worth it.

One thing to remember, though. Even if you get the most understand- ing GG in the world, don't expect to play Cinderella every chance you get. Your woman wants a man, a real man. You have to be masculine and strong, secure and protective, adequate, and someone that she can

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